It had been a tough year. A year filled with heart breaks, confusions, tension, sleepless nights and frustrations. Humans are a tough load to deal with. There were occasional positives of course, I wouldn’t deny that. But life, as it is, the sweet could only be savoured after breaking open that thorny, tough external shell. Like a durian (a popular fruit, delicacy in Singapore).
The exposure to the cold, merciless side of humans has been an eye-opener. I couldn’t find a better term for this. It has been an eye-opener indeed. But I would love to thank the smaller group of people who were extremely supportive during this difficult period. People who displayed what it takes to be human. I thank them all from the bottom of my heart. It all happened and ended well because of them. But as life it is, tough times are beginning to show up once again. I have been expecting rosy times. But I didn’t realise what it takes to be a good man. The sudden windfall of responsibilities (quite heavy) and complicated situations are taking a toll on me. Or am I allowing that? I didn’t anticipate all these. I thought life would be same. How wrong was I. It is now, that I’m truly tested to toughen up myself and be a real good gentleman. There are no excuses. And I’m finding it overwhelming. Every denial or shuns, make me feel absolutely guilty. The kind of guilt that drives you to bang your head on the wall.
I have been always viewed as a gentleman. But I’m human, and I do have my flaws. Laziness and complacency is a disease of mankind. I know it well. Recently, my mind isn’t getting the occasional food to keep it refreshed. It isn’t learning. It’s getting empty. And an empty mind is the devil’s playground. The devil is dancing away in my mind, finally finding its new dwelling. But I’m determined to drive it away. As I’ve said earlier, I’m forced to change. I can’t slack anymore. I’m never going to retrieve my lost and wasted time anymore. Dammit have I ever realised that?
The year’s ending in 6 days. Doomsday didn’t happen. That was a slap to the believers (or rather those negative scums who just want the Earth to be perished without a trace). The funniest and perhaps weirdest group of people were the “preppers”. They were preparing themselves for survival if disaster strikes. And you know what I mean by disaster. It’s not a flood or anything that just affects one country. It’s Armageddon. And mind you, these guys are relatively armed with good education. But I’m left to wonder, what the fuck have they learnt in school? It’s funny, saddening and maddening. But God bless the world. We are alive.
The year was filled with scandals, corruptions and controversies. It all taught a lesson, both to the wrong-doers and the public at large. That nobody’s perfect. A person in an elevated position in his career, does not necessarily need to have an elevated character. What drives these very people to commit such mindless acts? I do not know. But hopefully, they will learn, get their dues and move on. We should too. Like I’ve said, no damn person is perfect. Not even the deities (if you believe in mythologies). But one thing I can’t digest, teachers having sex with students. A disgrace to the noble teaching service. Damn scums may you perish in hell.
Mechanical systems are susceptible to failure. SMRT, please come with better preventive maintenance routines and DO NOT PUT THE BURDEN OF COST ON THE COMMUTERS!!! Thank you.
I hate rapists. Talking about the 6 bastards who gang-raped a student in New Delhi (new in name but astonishingly backward in systems) and assaulted her with an iron rod, including inserting that into her private areas. And the government could throw the onus of protecting oneself to women. This wasn’t the only case in Delhi. A 10-year-old girl was found raped and murdered, and her body thrown into a canal at a remote village in Delhi. Put it simple, if I had the powers, in my court, rapists will receive capital punishment. In the process of waiting for their doomsday, they will be put through the most inhumane torture “therapies”.
All right, the year’s ending, and I’ve set some reasonable goals for 2013. This time, the goals are more for skills development. Man-skills I would say. And I’m excited to embark through the coming year. It’s going to be fun. New stuff to learn, new places to visit, new people to meet and the list goes on. I shall throw away the negatives of 2012, extract the positives, and move on to 2013 with a newfound grit. While negatives are still lingering around, I’m not gonna give a fuck and I just wanna do what I love. Breaking down walls helps at times. At least you know where you stand. Yeah, some extra people have got into my bad book. Good luck to them.
Probably this was the most misleading article I have ever written. I feel drunk. I get the point. Hope the reader does. I have a strong social sense. That forced me to step out of a self-centred write to addressing the things that have been kind of disturbing me. It’s good I allowed me fingers and mind to be lead astray. I’m better. A little, but it counts a big deal.
Merry Christmas & a happy new year!!!